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Sarina's avatar

😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 you are a talented writer and an inventive lover, thank you for sharing your sweet, funny, thoughts and for writing this article. The last part of it I am especially grateful for - "Only now I wanted to do that with her." very lucky am I to be in 9 with you. 💜 🧡 🖤 💚 🤎 💛 🤍 💙💗

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CansaFis Foote's avatar

...inventive lover...read as being able to have sex skydiving in a pirate costume and mermaid tail while shooting machine gun fireworks and doing pullups...reality...can't do a pull up...

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Sandra Yvonne's avatar

Really loving the 9 crying emojis and 9 heart emojis here✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨

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Tommy Dixon's avatar

This was funny and sentimental and full of gold CansaFis

I especially loved: “From the day I met Sarina I sensed we should share time with each other. The doings that filled it up mattered less than the filling itself.   Love is time.”

Also chocolate milk and tetherball were my two favourite things like all of 4th grade

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CansaFis Foote's avatar

...how is there not olympic tetherball?....

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Jack Dixon's avatar

Loved this, so many funny and interesting and beautiful and curious aspects to this essay. Never thought about 9 like that before… it is a pretty cool number. Also Gordie Howe’s (a great Canadian hockey player) number. How did the Taco Bell experiment go? And I think it’s time for that TV show featuring your life to get its pilot.

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CansaFis Foote's avatar

....i had to sign a pact to stop the taco belling of my soul...now 20+ years removed from the act i wince upon passing the dinging dong of the bell...miraculously i only gained one appendage during the experiment...

...i am so jealous of Canadian superiority's...my parents raised me in America's parody of Canada (Minnesota) yet never taught me how to skate with a stick and smash people...hockey is the raddest sport that you absolutely should not begin playing in old man age (i have proof with the name sciatica)...

...encouraged by your support gents i will start a script as only a script of one's life story can begin...an extremely dirty sex scene in a locker room of a hockey game (where my parent's conceived my brother)...let the good times roll...

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Jack Dixon's avatar

This response is better than anything I could have dreamt of. That reminds of of Zorba the Greek who gorged himself on cherries until he hated them to rid an all consuming desire for cherries. Hockey is unforgiving… my dad started to play again in his 40s and paid the price.

Now that sounds like a pilot

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Rick Lewis's avatar

I upvote Jack's last comment.

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The Show Must Go On's avatar

Well, this is beautiful... The way you play with language makes something inside my soul sing, CansaFis. It's just the right amount of un-balance to remember to pay attention to the beauty you create. Looking forward to the next part...

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Sandra Yvonne's avatar

Welp. This was precious. Muy bien. 10/10

Also, Sinatra looks oddly like Oppenheimer there -- just me?

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CansaFis Foote's avatar

...definitely a man of the dapper cap era...

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Jen Dyck-Sprout's avatar

👏👏👏

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🅟🅐🅤🅛 🅜🅐🅒🅚🅞's avatar

we are all basically 9...I got to about mid 30's, but I think I've reversed the mental age...

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CansaFis Foote's avatar

...i am fairly certain i am living life in reverse as well...i find myself checking out adult diaper styles just to know for when i need to know...i hope they come seinfeld branded...

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